Monday, January 15

Everytime I look into your eyes, you make me love you.

I had to call in a few favours this weekend.
It's evident how desperate parts of my life have become recently, for me to have to call in so many in such a short space of time.
I can only hope that I have some more up my sleeve, should such a disastrous time rear it's ugly head again.

The Girl is wonderfully understanding and immensely patient. I can't help but wonder how much longer her fuse is. My moodswing feebleness reared it's ugly head right in front of her eyes and I felt powerless to do anything about it.
There was a conversation in the car on the way back, where she commented on how well she thought I was dealing with everything.
"I look like I'm coping on the outside, but inside I'm crumbling away"
I wonder if she heard that the way I intended it.

I'm no further forward with anything than I was this time last week. Two weeks ago even. If anything, I feel like I've been taking steps backwards. Time is running out and I really need to make some headway this week.

I'm ok though, thanks for mentally asking.

2 parlez:

lillian said...

at lost for words they sound cheap and cheesy.. just hope you feel better soon !

mona lisa said...

sorry you're in pieces, hopefully things will pull together.