Tuesday, April 27

Don't get lost in the dark, when you shine. So shine. So shine. So shine.

I'm finding there just aren't enough hours in the day.
And when I leave work and arrive back here, at my parents' house, I find myself not wanting to do anything.
I'd much rather just sit around with myself for company, along with a background soundtrack, of course.
Lately, I've been thinking about Jewel, my cat who left one night through her catflap, never to return. Ten days before I was about to move into my own place.

I'm currently having battles with The Company I work for, a lettings agency, my Bank Manager and my doppleganger. No wonder I'm feeling so drained lately.

I really don't want to be chemically dependant for the rest of my life. Just thinking about that brings me down.

How do you cope with feelings that twist your mind. There's no logic to them. Their foundations have major flaws and when it all comes crashing down, where do I stand?
Underneath it?
Beside it?
A million miles away from it?

Friends aren't supposed to fuck you over. Even when....no....especially when it's dark.

2 parlez:

gekkogirl said...

No they are not... do they realise that's what they are doing though?

bedshaped said...

I have no idea.