Sunday, September 27

Allocate your sentiment and stick it in a box. I've never been an extrovert, but I'm still breathing.

Family get-togethers.
Always the same.
I spent last night with my folks, my brother and his wife, my niece and her boyfriend, and an amalgamation of 'friends' for a wedding reception. Amalgamation may be the wrong word, but it's late and my brain is sketchy.

Dear friends and family,
It's very sweet of you to think of me. It's oh so kind of you to spare a thought for me in your own busy lives. It's lovely and warming to see how much you care about me. But seriously....I'm not 'with' anybody at the moment, but please....try not to see that as such a negative thing. I'm just fine how I am. My life is good. Everything is cool. I don't 'need' to be with somebody just because you see it as the 'norm'. I don't need a partner because in your eyes I must get lonely or sex-starved or will be seen as an 'odd' person. I don't feel abnormal or weird or out-of-place just because I don't have somebody on my arm. I know you think I need to be with somebody....anybody....but seriously, I don't. So please, please stop trying to push me in the direction of other single people. Please stop suggesting potential partners. And please, please stop showing me pity in your eyes. I'm just fine the way I am.

If you only think and remember one thing about me, it's that I'd rather be alone for the right reasons, than with somebody for the wrong ones.

Much love and respect,

bedshaped x

I've recently been asked when the last time it was that I cried.
How about while listening to this....


2 parlez:

sharon said...

Been there, done that. Family, eh?

bedshaped said...

Yeah. More trouble than they are worth.